Self
Finding My Place
Confusion, USA
2003

Dear Self,

WOW! This vacation is one I am really enjoying! You may wonder what I
have been doing to make it so wonderful but I am sorry to say--
NOTHING!!! I NEVER REALIZED BEFORE HOW WONDERFUL IT IS!

Actually, I have been thinking about my life. Now I am constantly saying
that I’d like to be a politician, but lately I’ve been having my doubts. I mean,
I realized when you go to college and then get a job, most likely it’s a
permanent thing. And the thought of being a politician just lost some of its
zest. I mean, doing that for 50 years onward is just something I don’t know
if I can EVER do! I told some people about my political aspirations but they
say, “You’re too young to think about these kinds of things." I really hated it
when they said this to me because I think the earlier you think about your
future the more ready you’ll be when you come to a fork in the road and
have to make a life-changing decision. I think that I’d also become a great
doctor or journalist. Truthfully, I think that whatever I do, and wherever I
go, all I really want to do is help people’s lives for the better.

At times, I wish life could be simpler, that I could plan it out as if I’m
planning a vacation, though in every vacation you’re given a different
opportunity. Say, instead of visiting a museum, you decide to go on a bike
ride on a scenic trail. Choices, decisions are always present. Why can’t
everyone think of life as a vacation?

I’ve always been taught by my family that doing well in the future is a must,
and I have some high standards to live up to. Am I really strange trying to
plan out my future when most other girls are just worrying about what they
are going to do next week? Should I just stop worrying about the future and
just revel in the fun of being 13 years old? Wow! I never stopped to think
about this but now that I have, I feel lost.

Love to myself,
Great Girl
Girl In. Deepthought